duel

by berta

/
  • Streaming + Download

    Includes unlimited streaming via the free Bandcamp app, plus high-quality download in MP3, FLAC and more.

      $7 USD  or more

     

  • Full Digital Discography

    Get all 5 berta releases available on Bandcamp and save 25%.

    Includes unlimited streaming via the free Bandcamp app, plus high-quality downloads of another shade of grey, wake, news, duel, and Hoam. , and , .

      $10.50 USD or more (25% OFF)

     

1.
2.
03:38
3.
03:11
4.
02:52
5.
6.
03:54
7.
05:37
8.

about

an album of duality. one and zero, plus and minus, conscious and unconscious, single and couple, you and me. is it about my relationship to music? my relationship to women? my relationship to work? my relationship to the world? my answer is yes: it is my relationship to everything. what else can i sing but what i feel, what i know, what i see etc? it is i, then everything else. there are a couple of songs here that have come about as exercises, but have only unveiled some deeper truth i may have been hiding, not wanting to express. a slap in the forehead. there's always honesty, even in denial. the truth is always present, should one seek to know it. and that statement may bely the need, the ache, the ever-present will to communicate, for better or for worse, of every work of art, every speech, every gesture. there is always something underneath, gnawing its' way to the surface. we grapple with our free will, our ability to do any and everything - and yet feel constrained, oppressed. unable to share, unable to receive; our relationships suffer, our lives, our bodies, our hearts, our souls suffer. and yet, we suffer as one, from this universal affliction. one can only wonder … do we suffer from ourselves? truly, is our duel not with nature, not with god(s), not with humanity, but within ourselves? when offered everything, what will you take, what will you do with it, and what does it say about what is true to you?

credits

released September 16, 2013

tags

license

all rights reserved

about

berta Santa Fe, New Mexico

just me, ben, makin music with myself, per usually.

contact / help

Contact berta

Streaming and
Download help

Shipping and returns

Redeem code

Track Name: one more night
i know nobody
gonna take me home
what's one more night
alone?

you said
i shouldn't call you
on the phone
you said i should spend some time
alone

me and
dead trees
and piles of snow
drifting through glacial waves
swimming to my home
nestled here
no one can find me
i don't think they know
when i'm gone

you said
i should dream
another dream
but i only have
this one thing

i know nobody
gonna take me home
what's one more night
alone?
Track Name: goldminer
you're a golden boy
every one wants your toys
you're a superman
every one follows your plan
in the eyes of the beholder
you are so much bolder
but i know you sold her
down the river
to me

she's a broken toy
all played out of joy
you can forget her name
but she'll never be the same
swept under the rug
after you promised her love
and sold her with a shrug
right down the river
to me

and we lie like stones
when we babble like brooks
and we try to mend our bones
from the scornful crooks
we're in debt up to our eyes
we know the price of life
we swim like the fishes
they know only wishes
are free

you're a golden boy
gilded with brand new toys
down here on this land
we make do with mud and sand
castles to the sky
wash away with the tide
and the tears in her eyes
come right down the river
to me

and her heart sinks like a stone
and her dreams are all broken bones
an angel loses her wings
and a blue bird forgets how to sing
then like logs in the water
they come down the river
to me
Track Name: skin deep
i was gonna wait
for you
i would even say
i do
but you think our differences would
drive us apart
and you have no faith
in matters of the heart

o what happened to your heart
if you can't believe
there's nothing to impart?

go so now we go
no, we don't know
roses in the snow
like blood of unicorns
smell is not your interest
only the thorns

o what happened to your heart
if you can't believe
there's nothing to impart?

go so now you go
show me who's boss
show me who's not lost
show me what you know
o you know
show me what you
o you know

for all you know
Track Name: stuck on you
you don't have to wait for it
i don't even care
we don't have to carve our names
in the bark of a tree
that's not there
and i don't have to gauge
how i'm gonna react
we never even set out to do
anything remotely like that

so just get out of the way
before it comes down
the trees in this forest
don't make a sound

and i don't have to wait for you
and you don't have to wait for me
whatever you think this is
is just how it's going to be
take it as it is
whatever it might be
just know it's got heart and when stabbed
it most definitely will bleed

so just get out of the way
before it comes down
the trees in this forest
don't make a sound
they tumble and fall
new trees rise up from the ground
they grow real tall
til they all fall down

you don't have to wait for it
i don't even care
just take it to the pavement
before i pull out
every strand of my hair
cuz you don't have the taste for it
this sappy little tree
but you can't admit
that it's sticking to you
like it's sticking to me

so just get out of the way
before it comes down
the trees in this forest
don't make a sound
they tumble and fall
new trees rise up from the ground
they grow real tall
til they all fall down
Track Name: chimp in a thong
came home late
dazed from the day
spaced out
space is crowded in my brain
think i oughta work
a little
on what i love again
i keep askin
what's love?
what is my name?

threw my whole life in a song
what comes out
is a chimp in a thong
every one says
can you put some clothes on?
i said he's all dressed up
it's a chimp in a thong

it ain't the words you use
it's where they belong
any body
can say anything
as long as they're not
wrong
maybe i'll write
an odious ode
to king kong
people tell me
he's got a thing
for chimps in thongs

threw my whole life in a song
what comes out
is a chimp in a thong
every one says
can you put some clothes on?
i said he's all dressed up
it's a chimp in a thong

why is that wrong?
it's not wrong
it's my chimp in a thong
Track Name: cut loose
i left the caboose
when your body went loose
and smoked a cigarette
in the men's toilette
and made my way
to the dining car
a tall glass of gin
sweet vermouth
cut thin
i feel like a boy again
i feel like a boy again
as i'm heading back
to the bar

is it one more stop or two
til the pont de garoux
o i think i'll have me
a howl at the moon
if it takes all afternoon

and i said it was in my blood
when you said that you'd had enough
and i could already
visualize
this trip through the countryside
and i made you
take me back
i'll show you the church, my love
you'll see the reliefs above
and see how they sacrificed
scraping away their lives
they gave it all they had

is it one more stop or two
til the pont de garoux
o i think i'll have me
a howl at the moon
if it takes all afternoon

a man soon asks
do i have all my bags?
i said i travel light these days
i thought it might be good for a change
and can you validate
my ticket, please?
Track Name: cages
you love him wild
in a cage
ruthlessly domesticated
you love the child
but you hate
the savage rages

try to sneak inside the cage
try to free the child in phases
but who will come
to escape?

eggshells
scattered out
for miles
who will come
to play
with this child?
will he be
courageous
will he be
contagious?

try to sneak inside the cage
try to free the child in phases
but who will come
to escape?

who will come
to escape

you are the cage
Track Name: last transmission
said it was all alright
living out on my own
sometimes i think
i want to be alone
said it was all alright
to figure out on my own
what to hold and
what to let go

you're not comin through
you're not comin through

food supplies
water and a sink
wood and coal
to keep me warm
i can see for miles
there's no surprises
just the wind
whispering cold

you're not comin through
you're not comin through

what was that
you said to me?

said it was all alright
howlin at the moon
maybe cuz you let me go
maybe cuz i left you
said it was all alright
never seein any one
sometimes i think
i need to be alone